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It's been a while, huh? So much to say... hm... My trip was canceled that I talked about 2 weeks ago. So, I’m not going to San Francisco w/ my mom due to a series of argument we had... Wow... what a day it was i snapped... She wouldn't listen to what I was saying, and she ordered me to go to my room and I didn’t listen, so she grabbed me and shook me or something and thrust out at her. She pulled back so it hardly touched her, but the message was across, I stormed out and she chased me shouting or something. I went to the top of the stairs and screamed everything that was wrong. I screamed, I remembered thinking 'I can't believe I can do this!’ I was shouting and I was thinking and my words just flowed without any stumbling, something very different then any other time in my life. I was faster, more coordinated, more happy then ever as I screamed to my heart's content. Everything must have been true because I didn't even have to think about it, like I have to with even simple expressions. I screamed till my chest hurt and my mom couldn’t say anything when I was done. She stared, for once in my life, there was nothing she could say or do to defend herself, no way to change the subject and criticize me, no way to anything. She stood there staring. I felt light as air; I was joyous and full of pride. I turned around smoothly and walked calmly into my room and closed the door casually and left my mother in shock. THAT is what it must be like to be free, free of weight on my shoulders, scorn, and free of... reason maybe? I'm unsure.
In any case, several times later my mother and I fought, it got to the point that twice I was ready to actually escape through the window with the emergency fire ladder in my closet, and I even kept a bag packed for if it got bad again... How crazy is that?? Actually running away! Like kids try to do year after year every time they get mad! 'They'll be sorry!'-- that kind of thing. 'cept I was like "I need out have here!!" and of course some of that 'They'll be sorry' was in there too... ^_^;
Things are better between me and my mom now... And I can't say I know why... I guess the subject just died.
Did I tell that I took an 8 week intensive community collage course in Japanese? I love listening to fansubs and listen to the language. I love every word I recognize.. I love the sound and feel of the language. And I love writing the letters so much! I do it whenever I get spare time at school. Write out the whole hiragana alphabet.. a, i, u, e, o, ka, ki, ku, ke, ko, all of them are so fun! There’s over 40 letters you know? And i still have to learn some kanji and all the katana. It must be nice to learn so much of something so fun.. I wonder if they like having 3 alphabets?
Oh! I forgot to mention me and Daniel i guess. We have sooooooo beeen together for over a year. I love him so much! It took us like 8 or 9 month to reach first kiss. It's so funny >w< someone has even asked us what our secret to our relationship was. I was so surprised; i don't think i answered well.. Anyway; Daniel: I love pushing my face against him. His heart beat is very amusing... Don't ask.
The new girl at our school, Liz, (we hung out together some during collage tour intersession) has started dating Ryan. It's so cute. ^_^ hehehe... Seriously.. Anyone reading this blog will feel my wrath!! O_O
Hm................... Recent news-- skipping through all current events to random unimportant things...
Some weird person keeps contacting me on AIM. It would be rude to post the entire screen name, incase stalkers are reading.. (I have like 40 stalkers on msn massager, mass people of them are from turkey or Peru and a few are from Saudi Arabia. And i know 2 French peoples and one Spanish dude.) But it goes like this.. hardydick** -.-
The last 2 things have been changed to *'s. Deal with it! How messed up is this:
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(This is a snippet from the second conversation we had)
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Morgan Wood89: ...
Morgan Wood89: this is a joke then..
Morgan Wood89: i see
hardydick**: no it's not
hardydick**: u did sit next some girls didn't u
Morgan Wood89: no
hardydick**: i may have mixed u up with the wrong person
Morgan Wood89: lol
Morgan Wood89: yea
hardydick**: no no no . there are so many people who look like u.
Morgan Wood89: not at my school ^_^
Morgan Wood89: you have the wrong im name
Morgan Wood89: somehow
hardydick**: you morgan
hardydick**: u go to clark
Morgan Wood89: theres 2 morgans
hardydick**: u have a strange, yet endearing laugh
Morgan Wood**: =/
hardydick**: you are in the 10th grade
Morgan Wood89: 11th...
Morgan Wood89: =/
hardydick**: whoops
Morgan Wood89: lol
hardydick**: i meant 11th
Morgan Wood89: yeaaaa
hardydick**: u know what i meant
Morgan Wood89: lol
Morgan Wood89: really, who is that
Morgan Wood89: *this
Morgan Wood89: =/
hardydick**: why would u want to kill the fin
hardydick**: fun*
Morgan Wood89: lol
Morgan Wood89: but you don't even know who this is...
hardydick**: yes i do
Morgan Wood89: really o_0
Morgan Wood89: then what do i even look like then?
hardydick**: u don't even know what u look like?
hardydick**: that's sad
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Most of this information about me is wrong.. like whom i sit with at lunch, and who my friends are.. But he has my school name, something that could not be made up. And, the other Morgan at my school, one, looks NOTHING like me, and 2, would have no friends the same as me to get this screen name confused with. It's unnerving. I got very pissed at this person as they have accused me of abandoning their friendship lately and says the girls at my table told them it was because they were a different race. One, i don’t sit with other girls (besides Liz and she just joined our table lately) and 2, i haven’t abandoned any friend-- Plus, I would NEVER do something abandoning someone because of race. I was really insulted and almost blocked the guy, but my curiosity got the better of me and I'm gonna try and find out who this bastard is before i do anything rash.
They must know who i am, they MUST.. just not in person... I wonder who it is who knows me so well and would do this..? I haven’t blocked anyone who i used to talk to a lot... though many of them have stopped signing on-- like Darcy and k-san is busy with FON and zero is.. um... gone? PIX blocked me... Tat bastard.. i have his name saved under a secret screen name with everyone else so I'll know if I’m blocked or they just stopped signing on. So far, I can’t be sure of who it is doing this.. But i have to find out... Also, there is a possibility it is a friend of Lars (who goes to a different school this year) who got his friends list sent to them, as such an even similar occurred in this manor but it was definitely someone else. Hm...
Oh.. I’ve been dragged back into the YGO thing. It's fun dueling Dan and Louis, i haven't dueled Ryan yet tho. I was sure Ryan was some sort of evil villain genius in YGO; like you know how in media the evil villain sends minions to fight the hero because doing it personally would be too boring a fight for them? I never see Ryan duel (almost no one sees him) and so i assumed he was like watching our pathetic progress of him, be he laughed and said he only wasn't very interested in Ygo is all. XP How anti climactic. That's all for now.. Bye4now No one!! -Your lovely Yasai XP P.S.
I used spell check on this, so it's not my fault if they mixed up some words again.. ^_^;;; heh heh heh...
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